Thanks to my amazing sister-in-law I was blessed to read THIS article today.
And you know what? It confirmed some thoughts that have been bouncing around my head all weekend that the Proverbs 31 *Insert not nice word here* has a lot to answer for!
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I have a fear of rejection. Most people do. But for me its one of those things that can be a real issue. I'm terrified of people judging me and hating me. After a conversation with someone new, or even a friend I often find myself analyzing the conversation. I get really anxious about it. And so though I often seem really out going its really not how I am. The reality is being in a large crowd of people (especially ones I don't know) often makes me sick to the stomach.
Today is one of those days when I have to let every thing slide. I had big plans. By big I mean grocery shopping. That was until Miss almost two put her two cents in...
Today is Laundry day. What that means is that I have changed all the sheets and towels in the household. My daughter has already successfully unmade the bed I spent forever making. I've hung up two loads of washing. I have a third in the machine. And one in the basket ready to go.
I have big. Possibly unreachable dreams. Like starting a small business. Having a cafe. Making amazing costumes. Getting fit. Running a marathon. Getting down to a healthy weight. Doing up my house. Going on holiday with my family. Having a romantic night away with my husband.
You know. Stuff. Since Facebook came out. Or at least since I joined it. I've been seeing old High School friends (online) and catching glimpses of their lives. And believe it or not. Its actually a real joy to see how well they are all doing. There are so many amazing people out there.
The thing is I can also see that I'm not the only one who left High School with certain insecurities intact. Its ridiculous what we carry around. And even knowing that its silly I find there are things I carry around inside even now. I have to say, If I could tell my old high school self some things I would. Heck I should probably start listening to my own internal dialogue. Anways here's a little list. Cause maybe I'm not the only one who needs to hear these things. I was absolutely racking my brain trying to come up with something to blog today. In the end I messaged a few friends and took the best option.
My friend Katherine suggested 'Motherhood and makeup' and with me being such a crazy glamorous woman I found myself saying 'yeah sure why not'. I don't know about you but I have heard the catch phrase 'live like there's no tomorrow' so many times and you know what? I think its stupid. Last night I was sitting in the shower (I know that sounds like a waste of water) and my silly brain did the what if I lost my hubby? What would I do? thing. It spun into what would I do with Paul if I knew he or I were going to die tomorrow? Eventually I stopped and listened to God, who I was talking to about the whole thing and he said this to me: For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have everlasting life.
John 3:16 In my little family Mother's Day (and Father's Day) don't really mean a lot. We don't really do presents or Breakfast in bed. But my hubby does always make an effort to let me sleep in. And he always tries to do something nice for me.
This year he and the kids took me to the Tauranga Home Show. I love Home Shows, Paul not so much. So Saturday was a really busy day for my little family. First we went to Elisha's Space themed Third Birthday. Then at 2pm one of my two Best friends arrived. Just so you know Celena I LOVED having you over, of course I always do, but still.
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Karla RoseI'm a Christian, a wife, and a mother of two living in the wonderful Waikato Archives
April 2021
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